// wishful thinking//

I kinda wish to get my high school moments back right now. Well, I’m pretty much stuck in the so-called medical school life where I cant really call it a life.. I mean.. duuuh, it sucks to be a medical school student especially if you’re not interested at all. My dad forced me softly to take medicine as my major in uni. I couldn’t say no to him.. and here I am now. 2nd year med-student.

Apart from that.. Let’s dig into the reality

Define life, people. What is it really? I wake up every morning, doing the same thing.. all over again.. I go to my campus at 6ish in the morning, then sleep between classes, then eat, then go home.. Is that even a life? Haha my life sucks. It kinda is. Yet, I was looking for my missing puzzle piece. One thing I learned.. never look for something.. or someone.. If it/he/she is yours, then you’ll get it/him/her in time. Just be patient. You have to get through a transition in life whereas you can see things clearly afterwards. Without a single hesitation. And wow I can’t believe I found it during holiday! Well not it actually, and well.. It may sound cheesy, but yes.. that perfect puzzle piece is my boyfriend now. I couldn’t ask for more from a guy. He’s the best decision I’ve ever made. You know what? you should really believe it when someone says “You deserve better” because yeah.. I found my better half! :)

Cheers,

NM

// Soccer has always been my fave.//

Did you guys watch the soccer match between Real Madrid and Barcelona last night?

// Forever and Always - Taylor Swift//

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye, we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me, were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak, I don’t feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me
Cause one second it was perfect, now you’re halfway out the door

[Chorus]
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothin’ at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest?
Made you run and hide like a scared little boy
I looked into you’re eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I’m not so sure
So here’s everything coming down to nothing
Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don’t anymore

(chorus)
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothin’ at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn’t mean it baby, I don’t think so, oh oh

Oh back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?

Cause it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

(Chorus)
Oh I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothin’ at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn’t mean it baby, you said forever and always, yeah

// The expendables//

I watched the expendables today with Gigi & his henchman.. Haha weird date right? I’d figured so too. The movie was excellent, especially the fighting part.

Can’t believe that those men in there could build up some muscles up till like that…scary biceps!

// Merci beacoup//

Listening to your voice at the end of the day really made all of my pain go away. Thanks for that.

// je mag dat niet doen.//

do u ever think that if we give a second chance to people - that there will be a third chance, a fourth chance, a fifth chance,……uncountable chances.

i was on the top of my life, i was trying to highlight every little positive things that ever happened to me, when something hit me — hit me real hard. i wouldn’t say that i’m okay now, cause im being realistic here. cause im not okay. im trying to grasp the idea that maybe theres something tremendous behind this, something that im not aware of, or havent been aware of.